Do you ever get that feeling like you can take on the world? Where nothing that has been an obstacle in the past even comes close to disrupting your focus? I love that feeling. It is something that I strive for all the time, no matter how illusive it tends to be.
Sometimes that inspiration hits me after watching a movie, where something strikes a nerve in the plot and I am able to draw a connection to it. I find my self not reading books much but when I do I always get that feeling. Is it possible that is caused by the feeling of accomplishment? Seeing that I have done something that i know that i need to set time for? Or is this content driven like the movies where I project myself upon a character. Ether way I wish I could bottle that feeling.
There are hours upon hours that I waste everyday from watching tv or reading countless posts on various web forums. I am not sure if I am searching for an answer or just prolonging the length of time that I fall victim to procrastination. Regardless I am going to make a change.
As the new month is here, and I am starting to make the plans for my immediate future (new FIRST team, projects, etc) it is time for a change. When I write these blog posts many times I feel both hypercritical and hypocritical at the same time. Where I over analyze my situation and then somewhat lie about the results. I do feel as if I want to change my life I can. There is nothing so ingrained in this world that you can’t move it with a bit of effort. But it is that moment of inspiration that gives you the adrenaline rush which can let you move mountains. Fortunately I don’t want to move mountains only myself, so as I must dig down deep for the motivation to achieve sometimes I know that I can change. The baby steps that can really make a difference might come down to the little things in life how I get up in the morning, when I go to sleep, the clothes I wear and how I do my hair. These tiny changes might have the ability to change the world just as one small rolling rock can pick up enough speed to cause an avalanche.
Now I just need to figure out who I want to be and which small rock I need to turn over to see my future.